So basically, I have no idea what's going on.

I feel like we're right back where we started. The communication is better, but it doesn't feel like either of us are putting forth any effort to see each other. I don't feel like we talk, not for real anyway. We talk about movies, what we've been doing (which is kind of personal I guess), other people, but never about us or what we're going to do as a couple for the future. I'm not blaming it on him. In fact, I know that a lot of it's my fault. It's not like I actually try to broach those subjects. I don't know why. As wonderful as it feels to be with him, sometimes it feels like I can't talk to him. I know that's dumb, but it's the truth.

I'm also feeling kind of guilty about not telling certain people about our reopened lines of communication, but at the same time I don't have the time or the patience to listen to all the crap that announcement is going to cause. Right now I just need some time to figure out what I'm doing and what I want.